well i walked yp to the door as nervous as all hell...i dont exactly know why because it wasnt like i ciould get the sack from work experience..(could i???) well any way as soon as i entered the building Callie(a veternary nurse) met me she showed me to the kennels(cages) and got me to work...yeah i know it was quick...well as i went into the room..it stank i dont mean the "woah who farted" smell but the whole gagging and almost vomitting smell...well what happened to make the smell that bad was that a kelpie cross had shit in its cage and i mean GROSS!!..well Callie opened the doors and windows to airate the room...then she went into the laundry and came bak with a bucket of water and a rag...time to clean. well i got a lead friom the laundry walking pass a black large garbage bag on the floor...not knowing and about to ask what it was i just pushed it to theback of my mind..well i looped the lead around Roly's (the dog) neck and moved himinto another cage(a clean one) while Callie then showed me how to clean the cages talking me through wat i had to do. it wasnt that bad...well she t hen went and got me some gloves..i put them on feeling important and all and then she showed me a cage inwhich a large white and Marmalade cat was (his name was Jasper) well she then told me to clean his cage...im like ok well i can do this..i opened the cage and moved Jasper into another clean cage and then looked into the dirty one...i turn to Callie and ask "what do i do with the poo?" well the answer that i got wasnt really what i wanted to hear.."pick it up with your hands and put it into the bin" i stood there for like 3 minutes stunned...thinking to myself 'what have i got myself into?" but i did and as i said it wasnt that bad..soon enuf i had the cage clean and lined with fresh newes paper.but then i pointed put to Callie that Jasper had peed blood the previous nite and wether that was a bad sign..she didnt know and sed to wait for one of the vets to come in. well anyway i got started like that...i then walked aRoly outside a while and let him do his buisness..then the cutomers and the patients came rolling in..Yup a rottwieler cross had to have some lumps removed,Roly our playful kelpie cross had to be recast, Jasper was having urine tests, sebastion a a moggy cat was in for something im not sure what, suzie had to also get lumps removed,there was Layla who had to get spayed. there were a few others including a large black grey hound with no name.(he was going to be put to sleep)

well i stood and observed with two opperations and did some more laundry and some boring office work then came the hardest and most sadest part of the day...time for my "John Doe"(the greyhound with no name) to be sent to the big doggy park in the sky..well we went into the consult room..Johnny boy not knowing wat was about to happen..u had to feel for him you culdnt be heartless and not..well i held onto him, he leaned on me as if i was his only support..the only one who understood him...just before the injection went into his leg he looked at me...his large brown eyes stared at me..his watery brown eyes..it could have been me but i could just for that brief moment belive that he new what was happening and that he was sad that he was... wel...crying... well as that thought came a heavy wait fell upon my arms.. i was dazed i looked down to see his limp body lying in my arms... my mouth went dry my eyes watered my throat constricted i could bearly breathe..it hurt my heart pounded a thousand miles a minute...i placed his body on the ground slowly and carefully...he looked as if he was just sleeping...as i left the room the look on his face before he fell the look he gave me stayed imprinted in my mind...tears came the flooded out..i left and ran outside where i could try and breathe..i needed air..."im being silly...u dont even now him he wasnt even your dog.." i kept telling my self...i heard people and i looked at the door....here came the vet holding a large black garbage bag..i knew who was in it...John Doe....then out came another person a nurse holding another black bag..this was the one that had been in the laundry...another dog...unknown to me....the bodies were "disposed of" thats the term that the vets use..disposed....

well that was one of the most hardest and sadest days of my life..i could not deal with that every day of my life. well that is all for now tears are falling on the keyboard....i dont think i can write anything else until next time....luv all of u...

MIeks